s.h.s.f.

salaam.
hihihuhuhaha.
alhamdulillah. i'm so happy.. my sister's wedding reception is finally over. thanks to Allah who has made all things possible.
i can now resume my holidays. and there's about 2/3 left. hehe. not that i'm complaining alhamdulillah. ;)

when i first started planning for this summer's holiday, i had a lot of things in mind. among the top ones on my list was lending more help to my parents. because honestly, being away from them really made me realize there was soooo much they had done for me. and i'm not sure if i will ever be able to repay them. so i was hoping these few months could somehow compensate for the 9 months that i was away. and since my sister's reception wasn't that far away, i was needed at home a lot. taking care of a few things that wasn't settled. and though i felt that this holiday was the time for me to educate myself. the time for me to give myself the tarbiyyah that i needed, my parents needed me much more.

i took this time to help my parents and hope that whatever i did this past few months would gain His blessings insyaAllah.

i'm feeling quite empty inside. i don't feel like i'm fighting a battle. i don't feel like i'm being tested. i don't feel that 'dunia' is something that i will be leaving behind and 'akhirat' is the place that i want to be. oh Allah, is this my punishment for drifting away from you?


suddenly i feel like Bristol is just the perfect place for me. *winks* ;p

thanks to a friend who gave me a quote from the quran. my spirit is now soaring high. *ayat poyo2 je heee* sadly i x ingat verse mane. aih. kene tanye balik.

p/s: s.h.s.f = summer hols so far?