start of easter break.
there's a few things going through my head.
the past few weeks have been...urm..what shall we say, draining? both mentally and emotionally. huhu. and physically of course.
mashaAllah. the test of life. the test of being a Muslim. or shall i be more ambitious and say a Mukmin. the test of entering the realm of the unknown. the realm where you can never assume the worse and never be dry of challenge. heheh. the test of being a da'ie. *setakat ini sahaja. takut utk menyebut the M word.
which i can assure you that I am still trying and failing and trying again and failing. but at times, it isn't all that bad. to think of it as a learning process, we are bound to fail. (especially for me, failing at responding well to my environment when i'm stressed. for being unreasonable. I so need to work on that). to take the mistakes and turn them into valuable lessons. to learn from them. (and i repeat. to learn from them)
when i think about it, Allah's plan is always the best. everytime I ponder retrospectively on His design, I fall in love with Him over again. the love story that we hope will always be alive with overwhelming moments and fresh encounters. unbreakable ties to supply us strength, to better ourselves as well as our lives. which insyaAllah we pray will lead us to the destination we are longing for. Jannah.
Tarbiyyah. Tarbiyyah. Tarbiyyah. a word that has not been a popular choice of mine till recently. when i understood. when I found the practicality of it. when I fully accepted it.the past few weeks have been...urm..what shall we say, draining? both mentally and emotionally. huhu. and physically of course.
mashaAllah. the test of life. the test of being a Muslim. or shall i be more ambitious and say a Mukmin. the test of entering the realm of the unknown. the realm where you can never assume the worse and never be dry of challenge. heheh. the test of being a da'ie. *setakat ini sahaja. takut utk menyebut the M word.
which i can assure you that I am still trying and failing and trying again and failing. but at times, it isn't all that bad. to think of it as a learning process, we are bound to fail. (especially for me, failing at responding well to my environment when i'm stressed. for being unreasonable. I so need to work on that). to take the mistakes and turn them into valuable lessons. to learn from them. (and i repeat. to learn from them)
when i think about it, Allah's plan is always the best. everytime I ponder retrospectively on His design, I fall in love with Him over again. the love story that we hope will always be alive with overwhelming moments and fresh encounters. unbreakable ties to supply us strength, to better ourselves as well as our lives. which insyaAllah we pray will lead us to the destination we are longing for. Jannah.
Bristol, a place I chose for superficial reasons, for being vibrant of culture and scarce of my own people. For wanting to seek challenge. A challenge, though might not be what I had in mind, I am certain it is the best learning experience. His plan for me.
SubhanAllah. You never seize to impress!
*eh. break kejap. had to use the photocopy machine.
and so, I hope insyaAllah this Easter break won't be just peaceful days with nothing to do but may it be filled with increased Imaan and knowledge, stronger relationships, more self improvement and wonderful photos. heheh :p doakan ye.
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