of walking

sedang peluh masih terlekat di badan, inginku berkongsi sebuah perasaan. huhu. tibe2 blank.

baiklah begini ceritanya..

Alhamdulillah, it is a wonderful morning in the beautiful land of Bristol. indeed it is bright and sunny and hot. as I was walking down the hills of Bristol to deliver the sushis, i realised that i had forgotten something important. my mind suddenly froze in the midst of the extremely hot weather...

i forgotten doa keluar rumah.
"bismillahi tawakkaltu alAllah la haula wa la quwwata illa billah"

immediately after reading it, i felt light, like all the stares and the cars and the big bulky men walking past me aren't at all of any fright.

hehe. this is probably like a drama queen moment. but i understood today that reciting the doa is not only about how well we remember the words and having the perfect pronunciation and all. it is also about the ruh of the doa...wooo mcm scary je. for instance, the ruh that should be present with this doa should be of tawakkal to Allah. mcm tawakkal burung that my mak usrah selalu sebut2. so it means that whatever happens to us that is beyond our control is under Allah's power and we should learn to be redha with it.

i think we usually underestimate the power of small small things we do. the thing is, small things are not at all small if they are inserted with a huge ruh! just like us, Asians, we're small but our aspirations of becoming ____________(fill in the blanks yourself) is not at all small. and just like the Palestinian kids who keeps throwing rocks at the Israeli tanks, their act of throwing stones might well be seen as something small but actually their ruh for doing it tersangat lah besar.

probably that's why Allah says org yg mati syahid sebenarnya tidak mati, tetapi hidup..jiwa mereka hidup..

dan kita pun same..boleh hidupkan jiwa..kalau kita hidup utk mati..wooo scary..which translated to a more subtle way would be hidup utk Allah dan mati utk hidup..insyaAllah.

yours truly,
NMJ