of a warrywart

bismillah, 

while i wait for my fish & chips to cook, i'll spend a bit of time to update my life. as I am into my 3rd week into my obs & gynae rotation, i bump into a lot of ppl. ppl who are inspiring as well de-spiring, if there is such a word. hehe. but Alhamdulillah, more of the former.

i have also witnessed some miraculous events in life which is delivery.  and i think it is truly an eye opener.  how the fetus can twist and turn to fit in the pelvic bone, at very specific and strategic points to avoid injuries such as shoulder distocia.  Subhanallah, Allah has pre-programmed us a way of keeping our lineage and generation ongoing. as you may well realise, westerners, whom most are atheist, often refer to Allah as 'nature'. Nature has provided us with such and such. which we, interpret as Allah's intelligence. 

and slowly, just really slowly, i am in the midst of searching for myself, yet again.  i guess it never ends, until someone tells me who i am, and i believe them (which there aren't that many i can assure you, i.e: mama & the family), i will never grow out of this phase? or until i feel i have achieved something great in life? or is just the temperaments of a medical student who hasn't quite decided what she wants to be and what will her future be like? Allah, i'm sorry, sometimes i forget, that i need to always remember to tawakkal to You. or i will constantly be a worrywart.

p/s: help! daddy long legs are attacking my room! 

-nmj