yesterday was hari raya aidil adha. a celebration of sacrifice one has made to gain Allah's love and mercy.
for me it was only a humble celebration at home. we dint blk kampung because mama din't feel well. we went to my aunty's house. i learnt a lot about how cancer pts felt. i never knew it before this. how anyday can be a the day when one finds out the ca has resurfaced. or how long they may hv until the body succumbs and its time to say goodbye. i always thought that the silver lining of having an incurable disease is knowing that u have acertajn period of time left. therefore one can work their best and do more good deeds to meet their lord. but then again, will one ever feel brave enough to meet death? and say i'm ready to die. and feel satisfied with one's deed. indeed death is a terifying matter which everyone will hv to go through. ready or not. 😭
i learnt bout khauf and raja'. about hoping that your deeds are accepted and feeling afraid that what u r doing is not enough for Him. and lastly at your deathbed, when u can do no more, u have to bersangka baik that Allah will accept your deeds.
how la. mulianya hati itu bila boleh berserah segalanya kepada Allah.
still learning untuk menjadi redha,
Nahdiya
yang masih kelip-kelip
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