Wednesday, 12 October 2016

of a clear night and inability to sleep

assalamualaikum world hehe.. it's been a while hasn't it.. hope ur doing well 😊

today i had a psychiatry course at hkl..then had a meetup with my dear friend Zaween..and suddenly i really miss the hospital environment.. seeing the doctors with the white coats and missing my HO days in Melaka.. 

anyway, since i decided to stay in kepong today, i'm missing my family at home.. and it got me thinking about my parents.. um since my borther in law passed away i think my parents have sacrificed and done so much for my sister and her kids.. and i'm so grateful to Allah for providing us with parents who are very supportive and capable emotionally, physically and financially in helping their child in times of need. Alhamdulillah. and i truly think that their 'jasa' cannot be repaid by us and may Allah grant them jannah. there's a hadith saying that if a father makes her daughter happy then the reward is jannah but i don't have the reference on it so pls don't quote me on that.

Jabir ibn ‘Abdullah reported that the Messenger of Allah, may Allah bless him and grant him peace, said, “Anyone who has three daughters and provides for them, clothes them and shows mercy to them will definitely enter the Garden.” A man from the people said, “And two daughters, Messenger of Allah?” He (peace and blessings be upon him) said, “And two.”

anyway, eventhough it talks about a fathers palce, there is also a high place /reward for mothers. mama is surely one very caring, compassionate, and somewhat at time has labile moods but she is our one and only mother and i love her for that. eventhough at times i may not understand her but she has sacrificed so much for us and i need to learn to become more patient so i can tolerate her better. and help her more around the house. i wish i had a lot of money so i can hire a maid to help her out. and so my mama can di anything she wants. 

i remember a friend saying to me that since my sister is taking care of her children alone how about we take care of them? and i was so furious with that suggestion. how can one take away children from their parents when the children is the backbone or strength got my sister. i remember being angry and since i'm emotionally reserved, i couldnt voice out what i thought and i just gave a cold shoulder instead. and tonite i'm not really sure why i'm thinking about this. 

myb it has something to do with the psych course i'm attending. hmmh

anyway, i still have the psych course tmrw and need to get there early for parking. 

adios. take care okay? 
nahdiya 

at the gardens with my sister and cousin xx

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