bismillah.

it's been a while since i've written. i've been pondering silently and soothing out my heart from a small tear. and Alhamdulillah, i think its slowly healing. :)

this week, i've managed to catch my breath from the hospital work. we, the 3rd years have been banned from the wards to give way for 5th years long cases. although, i am losing out on potential patients to clerk, the positive side is there will be no more vicious fighting with 5th years for patients after this since they'll be gone. GONE i tell you. yeah, off to somewhere exotic for their electives.

so, that's that. and my formative long case is tomorrow. NOOOOO~ i hate oral assessments. hat with a capital H and an e added at the end. Hate!

right, enough with the so called therapeutic rambling. i've been listening to a few talks to fill in the unusually abundant free time i have at home. i've been listening to talks on TED and BBC. the TED one was about balancing life and work, while the BBC was slightly more serius topic which is moderation in islamic countries of something like that. and i came to a conclusion. my lessons for this week:

1. work for your own sake and compete your own self. (not forgetting, lillahita'ala.) thing is, most of us have different ways of learning, different working ethics, different ideas and values. which makes no sense to do it some other person's way if our capabilities are different. and also, i think the healthiest form of competition is with one self. cause there won't be any judgement or animosity towards others.
*note to self: please think about what i want to be which i still don't have the foggiest!* growing up is so difficult.

2. an individual's stand does not represent a whole nations stand. 2 things i want to stress is the ability to make peace with one's decision, which might not be agreeable with others, and also the importance of tarbiyah. or education instead of imposing. (i was taken aback when Msia's PM mentioned about it. hihi, in a good way.) and also on this topic, would i be mean to laugh at Rosmah's statement? hihi.

3. my iman needs ignition. it's been 2 weeks i haven't given proper usrah. and on that note, i musn't forget my homework as well..

فَوَيْلٌ لِلَّذِينَ يَكْتُبُونَ الْكِتَابَ بِأَيْدِيهِمْ ثُمَّ يَقُولُونَ هَذَا مِنْ عِنْدِ اللَّهِ لِيَشْتَرُوا بِهِ ثَمَنًا قَلِيلًا فَوَيْلٌ لَهُمْ مِمَّا كَتَبَتْ أَيْدِيهِمْ وَوَيْلٌ لَهُمْ مِمَّا يَكْسِبُونَ

(2:79) So woe to their learned people, who write the law with their own hands and then say to the people, "This is from Allah," so that they might gain some paltry worldly end. (They do not see that) this writing of their hands will bring woe to them and what they gain thereby will lead to their ruin.

4. in love with this nasyid. luvit luvit luvit! xx



please pray to Allah, for my long case tomorrow. thanks!