of walking

sedang peluh masih terlekat di badan, inginku berkongsi sebuah perasaan. huhu. tibe2 blank.

baiklah begini ceritanya..

Alhamdulillah, it is a wonderful morning in the beautiful land of Bristol. indeed it is bright and sunny and hot. as I was walking down the hills of Bristol to deliver the sushis, i realised that i had forgotten something important. my mind suddenly froze in the midst of the extremely hot weather...

i forgotten doa keluar rumah.
"bismillahi tawakkaltu alAllah la haula wa la quwwata illa billah"

immediately after reading it, i felt light, like all the stares and the cars and the big bulky men walking past me aren't at all of any fright.

hehe. this is probably like a drama queen moment. but i understood today that reciting the doa is not only about how well we remember the words and having the perfect pronunciation and all. it is also about the ruh of the doa...wooo mcm scary je. for instance, the ruh that should be present with this doa should be of tawakkal to Allah. mcm tawakkal burung that my mak usrah selalu sebut2. so it means that whatever happens to us that is beyond our control is under Allah's power and we should learn to be redha with it.

i think we usually underestimate the power of small small things we do. the thing is, small things are not at all small if they are inserted with a huge ruh! just like us, Asians, we're small but our aspirations of becoming ____________(fill in the blanks yourself) is not at all small. and just like the Palestinian kids who keeps throwing rocks at the Israeli tanks, their act of throwing stones might well be seen as something small but actually their ruh for doing it tersangat lah besar.

probably that's why Allah says org yg mati syahid sebenarnya tidak mati, tetapi hidup..jiwa mereka hidup..

dan kita pun same..boleh hidupkan jiwa..kalau kita hidup utk mati..wooo scary..which translated to a more subtle way would be hidup utk Allah dan mati utk hidup..insyaAllah.

yours truly,
NMJ

bismillah.

have you heard the old tale of the naked prince? apparently the theory of evolution is just that. interesting. such a grand theory but not many can or more precisely would be, willing to dispute.

grand of course, is not necessarily true.

one of the reasons why i luuuurrve traveling. forces me to read. Evolution Deceit by Harun Yahya.

my new boyfreyyynd..

after years of containing my infatuation towards babies, here goes..the latest picture of aqil rafiq..a.k.a peanuts

of an amygdala

salam.
greetings fellow minions. huhuhaha
Alhamdulillah the 3-days 2-nights adventure with my weird and happy housemates has come to a safe ending in our home in Bristol.

the trip in detail is not exactly of great importance, but the feelings and lessons experienced is of course, never short of noting down.

first of, was a scene from the Lion King theater in London. Simba now grown up and living in the wild was searching for something..something strange and powerful, something more than the carefree life the jungle had to offer..something even he could not entirely understand. and alas, after a few encounters with Nala, his father, and the funny-looking yellow bottomed singing monkey, he was able to muster his courage to return to Pride Rock and take his place as the King of Pride Valley.

well, why did i particularly enjoy this scene? haha, apart from all the emotions that were playing around while watching the props and actors come to life, i thought this act was very moving to me, particularly as a Muslim. the journey Simba had to go through to find his place in this world was never easy. and so it is the same with us. as we live our lives trying to make sense of living, of our role in life, of the good and evil, of our past experiences, of our Creator, we too will fumble, will get confused, afraid and outraged with uncertainty, knowing that by default we are created for something bigger than what our normal typical students life is. as Simba was destined to be the King, so are we.
didn't Allah say that humans were created to devote themselves to Allah and be khalifah's on this world?

i think every person was born with greatness. greatness for one may be regarded differently from another. nevertheless they are still good qualities that are valuable in a person. and insyaAllah, if we keep trying to better ourselves, keeping our minds open and our hearts close to Allah, He will help us in fulfilling our roles as kings. the king of our own actions (nafsu), before becoming the king and khalifah of mankind. insyaAllah.

peace out y'alls, have to catch up on my nights sleep! ^.^ wee kepoyoan lah