Sunday 30 October 2011

of a kid loving comrade

N&N

"sebab jalan kita sama kan..hehe" thanks! :) 

just missing Amal in the picture. prefects 3i on duty block patrol during recess :p

-nmj

Tuesday 25 October 2011

of a silent laughter

Was in scrubs, just finished surgery. Thought it wasn't a very nice morning, just because theatre was a bit crowded with 2 STs, 1 aneas med student, 1 consultant, me and not to mention 2 anaesthetists and  assistant nurses. To top it all off, the consultant was not really the 'teacher type'. He's nice no doubt, i just had to do a lot of asking, which is a bit of my downside -_-;

Anyway, i was quite relieved i managed to get through the morning without stepping on anyone's toes. as i was walking past the double doors to exit theatre unit, i looked to my left and saw a room.  On the front it wrote:        
'Dr Farthing'.

Hehe. That was my day all better again. Alhamdulillah.

-nmj ;p

Sunday 23 October 2011

of a moment to remember.

cinta.
yg sebenar kpd Allah & Rasulullah. ^.^

nad, farihin & yaya somewhere near Keynsham?


cinta. kepada keluarga. cinta kepada kawan-kawan. 
mereka. anugerah drp Allah. Alhamdulillah <3

p/s: winners of the bowling tournament?
(of course,only in our own heads ;p)

-nmj

Thursday 20 October 2011

of fleeting thoughts

sitting in this dull room, one's mind just can't help but wonder somewhere else..
was reading Syeikhuna al-Banna's view on economy and politics and suddenly seems that my horizons are a bit too narrow to begin with..

and suddenly in need of an escapism which i love. JOM travel.  problem is..where? and when? i know this is not the cure to what is happening in the world right now, but it can't hurt can it?


Alhamdulillah, had an enjoyable day out with the community midwife. myb that's why i need to escape the clutches of the hospital ground and all things associated with it. 

sry, if i have been boring u too death with my petty thoughts, just needed an outlet to let all this madness run loose. ;) oh yeah, and remind me to call mama soon, last week she ws away for some seminar.

yours truly,
nmj

Friday 14 October 2011

of two people

it's been a while since we talked, 
it's been a while since we spent hours shopping, 
it's been a while since we had a private tete-a-tete in the car, 
while satisfying our craving for burger jampi at night.  

i miss you. 

i don't know where you get your composed, calm self. 
sometimes i think its from abah. but at times i feel u are more like mama.
or maybe because you are a female? i don't know. but it helped. 
and i'm happy for your wonderful family. 
because they are a part of me as well. 

i pray everything will turn out well. insyaAllah, have faith in Allah and keep praying that He will guide you and give what's best. 

please don't get freaked out by this. :p hehe.
i do still love you, cos you're my only older sister :)




Monday 10 October 2011

of a gloomy October weather

it wouldn't be valued if it wasn't difficult to get. -moi

yesterday i made a routine house call.  mama was telling me that a friend at her office has started a new business, selling cheap overseas stuff at local prices.  She was describing passionately the type of stuff her friend was selling, 'Baju-baju yg mcm awk pakai dulu, bukan yg skrg ni, yg macam dulu-dulu..yg mcm yanky yanky...' without any prejudice or judgement, she went on to the end of the story and how the business can bring some extra cash.  haha in my heart, i knew exactly what she means. coz i still have the clothes in my closet, i just don't wear them now, or (maybe not that often ;p).  Since mama is never the mom that forces things on us, she was never really pleased during my 'yanky yanky' days but she never would force the change.  so when i heard what she said i was laughing inside because of a passing image of just how unpleasant i was but she was just patient. Allah. how our hearts can be easily turned around by You. 

also a Hadith from at-Tobarani which is a Hadith Gharib from Anas, 
Allah Azzawajalla berfirman: "Sesungguhnya ada di kalangan hamba-Ku tidak akan menjadi elok imannya kecuali oleh kemiskinan.  skeiranya Aku limpah ruahkan rezeki kepadanya, dia akan rosak.  sementara ada pula kalangan hamba-Ku tidak akan menjadi elok imannya melainkan oleh kekayaan.  Jika Aku menimpakan kemiskinan kepadany, dia kan rosak.  Ada kalangan hamba-Ku tidak akan menjadi elok imannya kecuali dia sihat.  Jika aku menimpakan penyakit kepadanya, dia akan rosak.  Ada juga kalangan hamba-Ku yang tidak akan menjadi elok imannya melainkan dia sakit.  Jika Aku menjadikan dia sihat, dia akan rosak.  Sesungguhnya ada kalangan hamba-Ku yang berusaha untuk beribadat, namun Aku menhannya agar hatinya tidak diresapi perasaan ujub.  Sesungguhnya Aku mengurus hamba-hambaKu berdasarkan pengetahuan-Ku apa yang terkandung dalam hati mereka.  Sesungguhnya Aku Maha Mengetahui lagi Amat Mendalam Pengetahuan.  (Syarah 50 Hadith, Ibn Rajab)
It really is calming..that Allah knows us inside out.  Maka bersangka baiklah dengan Allah, that Allah wants the best for us in times of ease or difficulty insyaAllah. 

courtesy of yaya

missing home mode in the gloomy whether, uhuks :)
nmj

Thursday 6 October 2011

for future reference

sitting in clinics, most of the time just watching a conversation take place where you just wonder at the end of it, what was the whole presenting complaint again? and your mind just goes blank. sitting for the whole 20 minutes trying to figure out what they were actually talking about. but at the end of it. you do pick up a few bits and bobs. and in tutorials when people are stuck on the prophylaxis you give a lady developing high b/p in early stages of pregnancy. you draw out your experiences and it all becomes worth again.  of course, low dose of aspirin.  guess what? i think i might just be in love with obs & gynae.

and you just can't help but wonder how does this male dominated speciality truly gives justice to women complaining of dysmenorrhea or associated symptoms when they aren't physiologically equipped with a menstrual cycle.  i guess that's how far we have reached the standards of equality. hehe i still wonder though, why its male dominated. could it be because there's a fair amount of surgical skills required. but oh well.

its still early days, but its probably quite high on my list of interesting specialities.

Steve Jobs just passed away of pancreatic cancer. as a fan of his products, i can't help but feel a sense of sadness. first time i heard of him was in my ITGS class, a couple of years ago.  quite an inspirational figure he is.  i think his legacy could be found in every household.  i just thought, it affected the whole world when he went, and his legacy will continue for numerous generations.  just reminded me of Nabi Muhammad and his legacy that has brought rahmah to this world.  should feel more honoured and love towards our beloved Rasul insyaAllah. صلى الله عليه وسلم

Great Western Hospital, Swindon, 
nmj