Wednesday 20 February 2013

of a bit of amusement

Bismillah. 

Salam to all Muslims and may Allah guide you to not-yet-muslims. 
So, while I'm alone at home and waiting for my BA-Na-Na cake to bake, I thought I might just update my blog. 

Yes, I might be a bit narcissistic writing for my own pleasure. hah. who cares if I am. I find it's nice. after a year, or even a month, u can recall what you've done with your time.  and having the memory of a goldfish is another pushing factor.  

So anyway, last Friday, I went to Cardiff for an IMAM event, a MABIT and a daurah. It was sort of a last minute catch the next available train and grab life where it takes you.  Alhamdulillah everything worked out well.  Managed to kirim kasut mama in between. 

Funny thing was, everyone who came to the IMAM event was interconnected one way or another.  It's very entertaining how Allah susun perjalanan hidup kita.  If I recall well, I went to the Dr's wedding who gave the talk 4 years ago. But i don't think she knew me then, or I knew her. Anyway, its interesting how having a good/soleh support system helps to nurture your life and the life of your kids.  I like the discussion at our dining table. The Dr was asking her dad 'why there aren't many people willing to get involved in voluntary work or become comitted in volunteering?'.  The dad answered simply 'Sebab tak ramai orang yang dapat masuk syurga'.  Heh. And everyone at the table was smiling in agreement. haih usrah..

Lately I've been thinking about marriage. a lot. or not. well it comes in waves, sometimes it comes then it goes. I blame the age factor.  I suppose having a housemate who might get engaged soon may also contribute to it? I'm really happy for her.  Although we have our ups and downs, I think she deserves to get married sooner. Haha it that that fair to say? hehe probably yes, because I know her. ^^

Anyway, just thinking about it doesn't get me anywhere.  I need to device a plan.  a proposal for 'How to get married sooner rather than later'. okay that's the aim. Now, I'm stuck with the objectives. So far, here's what I have:

1. Doa
2. Dekat kan diri dengan Allah.
3. Immerse in other activities that you enjoy.
4  Don't think about it too much.
5. Focus Final LONG CASE please. (maybe the most important one so far, after 1 and 2)
6. Trying to convert my non-muslim friends? haha.

okay, my BA-NA-Na cake is almost done :) hve to go. catch up with you soon. 
Anyway, insyaAllah Allah knows whats best. All the secrets are with Him.  I pray Allah gives me the courage to make a move or whatever. In the now or the future. 

he..he..I have to apologise bout the merepek list above. It's just for amusement with pinches of salt. ;p 



Till I write about more personal stuff again -not,
nadmj




Monday 11 February 2013

of a splendid sunday

Bismillah,

so okay, yesterday (a Sunday) was such an ?awkward day. okay, maybe it's not the perfect adjective. ?awkward..yet exciting. ^^
basically twas an awesome date day with a tinge of adventure with my fellow housemate of almost 5 years, Nur or 'Newwwrr' as how the mat Sallehs would pronounce it.

We set out without any luck of having mr sunshine, raining cats and dogs all the way.  had a splendid brunch at Patisserie Valerie before embarking on our journey to the north? east? west? south?.. Basically the plan was to catch the 12 o'clock train to Cardiff to hang around eat out and return to Bristol by 6pm as I have an IMAM meeting. Unfortunately we reached the ticket counter at 12.01. So...we decided to cancel the trip to Cardiff as the next one would be in 2 hours. So a new plan it is.

'We could potentially go to BATH?' I said, although it is the ummmph-teenth time going there.  we both exchanged sighs. followed by reluctant smiles.

30 minutes...
staring at the departures screen.. with hopes of getting an 'ilham' for our next adventure. 'How bout just taking the next available train?' sounds good?  To SOUTHAMPTON?
no way! that's too long! defo can't make it back before 6.

READING?
what will we do there?
okay, anyway, we decided to go to the ticket machine and find out costs for some journeys.
OXFORD? sounds interesting! and the price is quite okay. 12 pounds for return with railcard. and not that far. but..
NO TRAINS going to Oxford on SUNDAY. 'Seriously?'

okay, let's just go to BATH.

and Alhamdulillah, twas fun. Tea at Sally LUN. it's okay. but i wouldn't have it too regularly.  There still needs to be a novelty aspect to it.  So I'm happy if it's just once in a lifetime thing.

BATH 10/2/13



LESSONS FOR THE DAY:

1) Alhamdulillah, so going out does cost quite a fortune.  I'm lucky it's just me that I need to pay for.  Imagine having your whole family to make the experience become such an experience.  Thing about this is, I've been stuck for so long in Bristol that I just wanted to free my head and get out of Bristol for a bit, even if its only a couple of hours.  And Alhamdulillah, felt much better afterwards, in terms of my focus, my motivation and efficiency.

Because I realised that the pleasures that you experience in life are luxuries that Allah has allowed you to experience.  there's so many people out there suffering, hurting, destroying themselves just to keep on living.  I know there's other atrocities and suffering happening in this world, but I'm referring to the BBC documentary about India.  How heart-renching is it to see people going in sewer where there's najis just to collect the soil water to sell it and them to sieve it to find traces of gold? and then with their own hands mix nitric acid, mercury and other hazardous chemicals without the use of any gloves and then rub their palms on the wall so that the burnt skin will peel off?

so maybe the description is too elaborate, the point being that people have dreams, no matter what their life may look like now, everyone has a dream.  If you are able to live the dream, be it that it may not be your own dream, it may have been someone elses.  But having the oppurtunity itself means that you should never let it go to waste.  and the fact that Allah has allowed you to have all these priviledges means that you have responsibilities to create a better life for the future and to serve Him, and other people.

In conclusion, I'm very grateful to be where I am now, although I haven't yet finish medschool I hope I'll be able to this year InsyaAllah.  And hopefully I can create a good life for myself and my family.  A life where money may not be a big issue. I don't mean that I'm going to be rich.  Just enough with the basics so that a bigger part of your physical, emotional and mental burden can be based for something else.  Such as serving the society, and being active in volunteering and such.  Mama once said, syukur tu tak cukup dengan rasa je, you have to do/give something back.

"Sesungguhnya kefakiran itu lebih dekat dengan kekufuran"

Ya Allah, please ease my affairs in dunia and Akhirat.  Please make Dunya my tool for reaching You and not the other way around as how the wise sister Yasmin Mogahed quoted in one of her talks.
Amin.

xx
nad