bismillah.

today, i'm going to write about podocytes. the other day, our lecturer mispelled it on his slides to po0docytes. that was funny. hehe. try saying it. sorry for the weird opening sentences, but this is not what the main idea is about.

back to the point, for some of you who might have not taken bio in IB/Alevels/matrics/college, podocytes are the small cells sticking onto the blood vessels in the nephron (kidneys).

i'll show you a picture of it. (courtesy of uncle Google)



although they might look like creepy crawlies or the bad pirate squid guy in Pirates of the Caribbean, i find these guys are quite fetching. don't you think so? and probably our admiration in any creations on this earth should be attributed to Allah. subhanAllah.

research shows that these podocytes actually run along the blood vesels and sits themselves on a spot and then cleanse the blood vessel wall by a mechanism called (i can't remember) let's just call it flushing. basically, underneath the podocytes is the subpodoctes space (SPS). fluid from inside the blood vessel will move out to the SPS then move back into the blood vessel. and that is how the podocytes cleanses the vessel wall, which is very important because our vessel wall in the kidneys are what is used to filter our blood from foreign/toxic stuff. so its important to make sure the filter itself is clean. so after that part is clean, the podocytes will then move to another spot, and do the same thing. does it make sense to you? or maybe i'm just making sense to myself. haha. sorry! -_-;

comel kan Allah's creation? pakcik2 podocytes tiny yg byk berjasa. subhanAllah. and the same goes to our hearts. it's important for us to cleanse it from time to time. if our heart is what we use to filter the right from wrong, it definitely has to be kept clean. from dosa, from disease (penyakit hati..hehe), and make it sparkling clean insyaAllah.

[إِنَّ فِي خَلْقِ السَّمَـوَتِ وَالاٌّرْضِ وَاخْتِلَـفِ اللَّيْلِ وَالنَّهَارِ وَالْفُلْكِ الَّتِى تَجْرِى فِى الْبَحْرِ بِمَا يَنفَعُ النَّاسَ وَمَآ أَنزَلَ اللَّهُ مِنَ السَّمَآءِ مِن مَّآءٍ فَأَحْيَا بِهِ الاٌّرْضَ بَعْدَ مَوْتِهَا وَبَثَّ فِيهَا مِن كُلِّ دَآبَّةٍ وَتَصْرِيفِ الرِّيَـحِ وَالسَّحَابِ الْمُسَخَّرِ بَيْنَ السَّمَآءِ وَالأَرْضِ لآيَـتٍ لِّقَوْمٍ يَعْقِلُونَ ]

(Verily, in the creation of the heavens and the earth, and in the alternation of night and day, and the ships which sail through the sea with that which is of use to mankind, and the water which Allah sends down from the sky and makes the earth alive therewith after its death, and the moving creatures of all kinds that He has spread therein, and in the veering of winds and clouds which are held between the sky and the earth, are indeed signs for people of understanding.) (2:164)

let's start our spring cleaning iAllah! ;D
-nmj

all this rant is so unncessary. i'm so sorry if people have been reading this. i seriously need to mend myself. i've been acting unreasonable for the past few days. or maybe weeks. part of me says its because i haven't come to terms yet with my lost. part of me says its the hard work, or the lack of. and a deeper part of me is whispering that i've lost my passion. which i seriously need searching for right now.

i need a quick fix.

Allah, help me please. Amin.

hihik..just got off the phone with mum. it's the best feeling. especially after some time now i haven't called home. and the weather today is fantastic Alhamdulillah. ;)

a bit of newsflash from home: adah is now a mother! and so young..my 10 year old sister is now a proud mother of 2 rabbits. combi and comba. and this weekend she's gone off to kem fatayat leaving her babies with their grans. apparently she's the new popular kid on the block because of her new rabbit babies. hmm. i wonder if my pet rabbit that i let out the cage once will ever come back.

bismillah.

it's been a while since i've written. i've been pondering silently and soothing out my heart from a small tear. and Alhamdulillah, i think its slowly healing. :)

this week, i've managed to catch my breath from the hospital work. we, the 3rd years have been banned from the wards to give way for 5th years long cases. although, i am losing out on potential patients to clerk, the positive side is there will be no more vicious fighting with 5th years for patients after this since they'll be gone. GONE i tell you. yeah, off to somewhere exotic for their electives.

so, that's that. and my formative long case is tomorrow. NOOOOO~ i hate oral assessments. hat with a capital H and an e added at the end. Hate!

right, enough with the so called therapeutic rambling. i've been listening to a few talks to fill in the unusually abundant free time i have at home. i've been listening to talks on TED and BBC. the TED one was about balancing life and work, while the BBC was slightly more serius topic which is moderation in islamic countries of something like that. and i came to a conclusion. my lessons for this week:

1. work for your own sake and compete your own self. (not forgetting, lillahita'ala.) thing is, most of us have different ways of learning, different working ethics, different ideas and values. which makes no sense to do it some other person's way if our capabilities are different. and also, i think the healthiest form of competition is with one self. cause there won't be any judgement or animosity towards others.
*note to self: please think about what i want to be which i still don't have the foggiest!* growing up is so difficult.

2. an individual's stand does not represent a whole nations stand. 2 things i want to stress is the ability to make peace with one's decision, which might not be agreeable with others, and also the importance of tarbiyah. or education instead of imposing. (i was taken aback when Msia's PM mentioned about it. hihi, in a good way.) and also on this topic, would i be mean to laugh at Rosmah's statement? hihi.

3. my iman needs ignition. it's been 2 weeks i haven't given proper usrah. and on that note, i musn't forget my homework as well..

فَوَيْلٌ لِلَّذِينَ يَكْتُبُونَ الْكِتَابَ بِأَيْدِيهِمْ ثُمَّ يَقُولُونَ هَذَا مِنْ عِنْدِ اللَّهِ لِيَشْتَرُوا بِهِ ثَمَنًا قَلِيلًا فَوَيْلٌ لَهُمْ مِمَّا كَتَبَتْ أَيْدِيهِمْ وَوَيْلٌ لَهُمْ مِمَّا يَكْسِبُونَ

(2:79) So woe to their learned people, who write the law with their own hands and then say to the people, "This is from Allah," so that they might gain some paltry worldly end. (They do not see that) this writing of their hands will bring woe to them and what they gain thereby will lead to their ruin.

4. in love with this nasyid. luvit luvit luvit! xx



please pray to Allah, for my long case tomorrow. thanks!

bismillah,

sometimes i wonder. is there more to life than being a medical student? i am again in this phase of feeling trapped. Allah, please shower me with peace and provide me with sabr.