A step back...: June 2013

Assalamualaykum..may peace be upon all of us :)

Hajime mashta, Nahdiya des

Yoroshiku onegaishimas

lols..please accept my greetings which may just sound like correct Japanese ;p

I don't know why it just feels like a drag to write these days..is it the travelling, the change of environment, the lack of studying or just pure inspiration block? lols such drama just to figure out such a trivial question..the answer is just laziness kan sebenarnye? ^^

To tell u the truth, I have been going out quite a lot recently..Let's see..starting from last March, flew back from UK to Malaysia. Then went to Bangalore from Malaysia and came back to Malaysia again. Then went to Osaka from KL and back to KL from Tokyo. Then to Ili's wedding, to Mus's wedding and flew back to UK from Malaysia again. and Of course..it wasn't all within a day..please laugh..

I'm currently at home in Bristol. Yes, home. I thought I lost it when I packed all my things into boxes 2 months ago. But nope, it still feels that way. I got back almost 2 days ago. If felt surreal at first. Coming back to an empty house, alone. I felt overwhelmed. I was happy to be back. Sad that I'll be leaving soon. Empty that my housemates aren't here. Astonished at the cleanliness of the house (credits to Farihin's mom). Grateful for the great memories left behind. The meals we had together, the chatting (read: gossiping) in the living room with intense feelings as we discuss 'matters of the world', the meals together, the MABIT, the usrah sessions, the Solat Hajat for exams and our loved ones, the fights, the watching movie night while eating Benny's burgers, the wrapped up in the duvet nights reading books while drinking hot drinks, and the intense night of studying prior to 4th year exams..lols..we took turns to sleep so we could wake each other up..A+ for team work and last minute workers.. :) the carpet stains from spilled drinks and many more..

You know when you've found something great, it's difficult to let go? Like a good shoe? When a favourite pair has been worn out, one would feel sad because it's going to be difficult to find a substitute. And if the damage if repairable one would then consider to repair it. You just want to hold on to it till the last minute. That's how I feel about the house. such a bother heh? for just a house..but I think the feeling is more than that. It signifies that the future will change. I won't be with my housemates, my bristol friends and no more a student. No more merry nights with lovely people and also more growing up.

I suppose this is just part of life. I'm sure everyone who's graduated feels this way. Where it's time to close the previous chapter and to open a new one. To reflect on what has been, learn from the mistakes, nurture into someone better, cherish the good memories and be grateful to the One who has given us what's best.

yaAllah, I hope my new chapter will be something that I can handle well. And also, I still haven't decided where to go. But the plan right now is to apply with a friend, and the lucky person is Farihin *clap2*

And funnily enough, the city, Bristol, just doesn't seem like home anymore. but there's no drastic changes in the city from what I can see. It's true what they say, home is where the heart is. And I think right now, my heart is back in Malaysia. Yep. The Malaysia where I just seem to give out snark comments on the hot weather, crazy motorcyclists, no pedestrian lanes, motorcars that just run past the zebra crossing and red lights, potholes everywhere and many more. But alas, it is a country which I love and hope that will have changes for the better. and I'm glad to be back and hopefully doing my bit in helping the ummah in the broadest aspects.

My apologies for this semi-depressing entry. I'm telling you, it's the empty house. On a lighter note, I left my book 'the adventure of a 100-year old man' I think is the title on the plane..arrggh..I just feel like hugging my self now..and my biological clock is still Malaysia time, I hope I can sleep better tonight inshaAllah.

Here's some wedding pix to lift up the mood. May their lives be filled with sakinah, mawaddah & rahmah inshaAllah :)