of tiny cry babies

hi world.. it's me again..

it's been a while..☺️

so many things to tell u.. but i'll just share with u one thing at a time

i'm in scn now.. a land of blue lights, incubators and cry babies..at first i had quite a culture shock adapting and all but slowly i'm learning to like it..hihi.. learning to find colleagues i can work well with, learning to build confidence and expose myself to different kinds of resus scenarios which by the way still scares the whatever out of me when i gt called.. 

but good team mates get me motivated and i appreciate having them a lot.. there's still the 'tak puas hati' and gossip and lazy bums hanging around.. but i just keep jy ears closed and do whatver i think is best..so so far Alhamdulillah.. 

last week i gt a call from my cousin to help change his father in laws cbd and ryles tube. i asked my friend for help and we went to their house. singgah kjp to buy fruits as buah tgn and my friend helped me to carry it to the car..i actually noticed it and i thought it was really sweet.. anyway despite the awkwardness.. it was very kind of my friend to help me out especially on such late notice.. may Allah ease my friend's affairs.. and i probably need to repay him back one day. 

i really love this quote 

i'm thinking it's time for a long getaway.. or myb not so long.. need to find out how many ALs i have.. update u leayter.

urs, nahdiya

of a little rant

many a times u just wonder why one comes and leaves.. then u remember there's lessons to be learnt from everyone u meet.. and today coming home from work u feel contented.. because slowly ur learning to open up and love the people around you.. 

and the only appropriate response u can think of is gratefulness

at diana's wedding 

yours truly, 

nahdiya

of a little prayer

whoever you really are, i hope Allah will protect u from harming and hurting yourself.. 

i pray may Allah accept our deeds and forgive our sins.. 

and i hope for the best for you, my friend, just as i would for myself.. inshaAllah..

take care.

your friend always, 

nahdiya

of an insight

because everyone has an evil side.. u just need to learn to control it

of an off day

so Assalamualaikum and hi..

so today was my off day, peculiar enough  i din't go back to bangi. since i just went back 2 days ago.. 

i've made a list of things to do but only managed to complete 30% of it.. which is not so impressive

i'm currently just 2 weeks into my paeds posting.. umm so far so good.. i suppose..

the first week was horrible.. i hope this week will be better.. i think i really like kids.. but the hecticness of the ward makes me not like paeds.. yes, this is me, the fikle minded, the one who's so hard to make decision..

which reminds me, i haven't yet applied for my placement.. a part of me just wants to go off to another country and work as something else, but another part of me really enjoys being a doctor.. so i don't know is it worth trying to find a doctorish job in a another country? will i be happy? this is so difficult.. i'm really contented where i am at the moment, having a nice home close to the hospital, a nice family, nice friends, money to buy things i like, all of which i should be thankful abd grateful to Allah..but in a few months time things will change.. my work place will change, my housemates will change, my status? umm i don't know bout that.. 

anyway, i've been thinking, i miss my old self, my self who loves adventure, who loves to be surrounded by nature, who loves to walk in the rain, who is weird, who is a dreamer and who is a fighter for what she wants.. i think slowly i'm losing myself..

but certain things keep u grounded.. like an old pair pf jeans that remind u which countries u've been in them, like a cute backpack which remind u which country u bought it from and from which friend u went with, or a cardigan to wear on a rainy day to remind u which country u used to study in., or a certain habit that reminds u always remember Allah and yo always depend on him like reading ma'thurat in the car, all of which reminds u a bit of yourself and brings u back to ur essence.

so today, 3 things that i learnt about myself:

1. u just need to ask to make something happen 

2. being loyal is one of my strongest traits

3. u can't just like a person because he fulfills 2 things on your criteria because for all u know he can always be fooling around with so many other girls

okayy, so the 3rd one is not about me..

anyway, i am aiming for hospitals close to bangi which are hospital putrajaya, hospital seremban, hospital kuala pilah 

and hopefully in that time i'll be able to find a spouse 😂 

hmm yes, i know, i'm not getting any younger..😭

okay dokes, need to sleep, tmrw i'm working pm shift which is bad so need to work up early and breakfast..

see ya layters, 

bye salam 

dr nahdiya

stealing my sis's bokkitta 

supermann in the house yo

of sakit kaki

penatnye paedsss.. nk nangis bolehh? 

enjoyable la jgk tp penat.. sakit kaki.. sakit blkg.. da lama tak dpt g swimming sedihnyeeee..byk pulak complaint..🙏 yela da 6th posting haruslah pandai complaint ngehe

anyway i'm really happy my friend yannie got married last sunday and i got to attend her wedding so yay! Alhamdulillah

i love weddings. and it's better if it's a friend or family wedding that i'm close with. i think finding a friend, spouse or someone who can tolerate u is a real blessing and rezeki. and i'm just happy for their rezeki so i like attending weddings.. besides there's always the free food to look forward to.. hehe 

anyway, to my dearest friend, may her life be blessed with mawaddah sakinah and rahmah and may she settle down well in uk. 

and then i got to catch up with my gurl friends as well.. just like old times

of my eop

its all about the coffee

can't put my eyes to sleep because i drank coffee just now. so genius. 

i've been thinking 2 things i really wish i can do for/with my parents/family:

1. pergi umrah together

2. pergi ohio, US to see their old college

inshaAllah one day Ameen

urs, nahdiya

let's sleeeep

of organ donation

hallluuuu.. it's me again.. guess what tomorrow instead of working like a normal HO i'll be going to mmu to open a booth and promote organ donation.. 

malasnyeeeer.. i'd rather go into ot... hwehhhhh.. anyway, just need to read up on the slides.. and i'll be sorted.. or i think so ... hmm 

haha from 2008 to 2015.. 

103 high kingsdown lives on forever inshaaAllah 😁 tiba2 je kan

little gumba's

wish we well tmrw inshaaAllah,

yours truly, nahdiya

it's raya

and i'm still clueless about my life 😭

myb because i'm hungrrryyy... and i can't think straight

on 4th day of raya wishing u taqaballahuminna wa minkum,

nad mj

so far into ramadhan

so today is already the 25th night of ramadhan.. it's going by so fast.. to thibk that it was like yeasterday i was in bangi celebrating 1st ramadhan with my family.. 

anyway, so far i'ce been to masjid al azim for tarawih prayers 😊 Alhamdulillah.. that's one box checked.. i havent yet managed to iktikaf at the masjid bcause im scared to go alone.. last time i went to masjid batu pahat was with mu aunties so we had eeach other to look out for if something happens.. anyway, i'll try to go next monday since i work night on tuesday so i can go home and doze off after hehe xx

so far i have only rememorized an naba, i havent used my tasbih in the car daily, i have managed to give sedekah at least eod, i haven't managed to read quran daily.. i wish i could

but anyway, the important thing is to make each ramadhan better than the previous one and i think i've achieved it inshaAllah. there's still a few more days left of ramadhan so hv to use my time wisely. 

i found out that working while trying to complete my ramadhan checklist is really challenging..and when i get off or post nite it's easier.. it just shows that juggling work life balance is quite hard.. so i salute all the ho or mo mothers out there and those with families and need to multi task a lot.. kudos!! wish someday i'll be a mother.. i've been getting really broody recently.. and i might just hv the interest to be a paediatrician.. we'll see

anywya, today i hv a lot of things at hand..

i plan to make cake batik and cook for buka.. i think i'll just make tomyam and telur dadar and masak nasi.. hehe 

and need to prepare for presentation tmrw and fill in my logbook

may Allah ease inshaAllah. 

urs truly

nahdiya 

with my lovely housemates at simply fish

(minus one)

of me

maybe it's time to grow up!

of 1st ramadhan 1436

my to do list for ramadhan in shaa Allah:

1. read quran daily

2. try to khatam 

3. give sadaqah daily (at least rm1 a day)

4. try to rememorise juz 30 (with meaning, if possible) 

5. read syed qutb's in the shade of quran for juz 30 and surah taha 

6. sabr in times of anger

7. smile in times of knackeredness

8. utilise tasbih in the car daily

ok let the cleansing of our soul begin. 

jom rebut pahaha :)

urs always, 

nahdiya

of small people

kanak kanak adalah sgt comel. fullstop. little rascals they may be, but they can be as cute as a kitten. 

subhanallah mashaallah tabarakallah

spec terbalik pun bolehhh

urs, 

nahdiya

of smiles

of an eventful weekend

salam, it's me again..

so Alhmdulillah i've managed to get a post nite on saturday and off today.

so yesterday i went to diana's wedding. it was in Cheng. true, i'm not that close with her. but she was someone who i kinda liked befriending. so i wanted to attend her kenduri. luckily unae was able to come as well. 

so i reached her kenduri a bit late. managed to fill up our tummies and get a picture with her. in the car i had a heart to heart sesh with unae. sent her back to ED. had 1 hour nap then woke up and went swimming with munya. 

i needed the swimming sesh. i just love floating supine and let go of my body and look up to the sky.. wondering.. about things..and then our routine gossip sessions in between laps. 

so after that went back home, solat maghrib, packed up my stuff and drove back to bangi. 

next day, woke up early drove to depot imigresen for rohingya where i volunteered to do medical check up for them under Imaret. it was a really nice early morning drive and the place is actually in broga. so there was mist and it was really cool to see all the cyclists and people all geared up to ccljmb broga. 

it felt good being able to find time to volunteer. however there were a lot of mixed feelings when dealing with them. 

hmm. maybe later on i'll delve deeper into this topic. anyway, tomorrow i have basic life support course. and i just reached melaka. need to rest. and sleep hehe. i'll update u soon

yours, 

Dr Nahdiya

of road manners

so i was driving yesterday back from makan and someone flashed my car, to allow me to pass through the narrow road first. it reminded me when i was driving back in the uk when we normally used flash as an indicator to give way to the other vehicle frist, instead of using flash to say get out of my way. 

ahh the good old days. road manners just makes my day. 😁

yours, 

Dr Nahdiya 

of jumaah mubarakah

salam jumuah everyone..

Alhamdulillah tis a very wonderful and sunny morning and i just finished my night shift. 

last night was hectic and very2 eventful. or in common words, jonah.. 

though i seriously think it's not me. 

it was probably from the ones on the shift before me..

anywya, will talk about it after i have my nap. really need one at the moment hehe

post night walking to parking 😁

of an amusing encounter

so i've been approached by several people throughout my life. some may be friends and some may be strangers asking whether i wear eye liner. 

this includes my discipline teacher during primary and also secondary school. which may have determined whether i would be getting detention or not for wearing make up in school. 

of course who knows me will know i have never owned an eyeliner in my life which also means i do not wear it. 

but the latest respond i got from my friend was the most amusing one, and she said shockingly,

 "tipulah mata kau mmg macam tu" 

ahh peluh besar please. 

please believe me. anyway, it's funny cos i've always grown up looking like this. so makes me think its just normal. until other ppl come and ask me thing s like that and it makes me think, is it abnormal? do i look like an alien? 

till then, 

dr alien

of an epiphany

today i learnt how to differentiate true friends from fake, unworthy ones.. sad but true.. big sigh

of a to do list

hello world, so my to do list for today..

1. ganti puasa 

2. bayar rent

3. bayar letrik

4. join mercy 

5. decide nk buat mrcp tak 

of missing home

please take care of each other and your mom. and don't forget to doakan ur ayah and grandparents ok. 

i love u both, 

mak ngah

of some thought before going to bed

i hope everyone's well at gome.. i really miss them.. especially in times like this.. i suppose that's the difference between kids and adults.. if a kid will throw tantrun and does impulsive things that will make him/her get what he/she wants.

an adult on the hand, faces things that are unwanted in life with sabar and doa that Allah will take care of the rest And try to find meaning behind it. even if i am still feeling quite clueless right now..

oh Allah please ease our affairs in dunya and akhirah...

or make us strong to go throught ur tests ameeen 

of a bit of sadness

salam.. long time no see..

it is the cycle of life that when one enters the world, others will go..

i'm in my car in front of my house and it's raining outside. hmm...i don't feel like going out.. 

these past few days hv been quite sad..

but with everything in life, u just take it in with a pinch of salt..

and carry on ur life as usual..

and u keep on reminding urself that the only constant is Allah..

and pray hard that He will make it alright inshaAllah..

of screaming out load

i feel so angry...urgh i can just scream so loud till my ear drums pop out

of a last minute getaway

and so it ends.. today.. the adrenaline, the teamwork, the astonishment, the awe..

waking up in the morning in denial.. but the food is a good motivation to wake up 

of Amniotic fluid and the likes

hi there, long time no see.. it's me here.. and yes it has come to that time where yet again i will be embarking on a new terrain. and i'm speaking career wise. 

sobi'm currently wnjoying my end of posting for OnG. i'm so glad i've finished it Alhamdulillah. it was an interesting posting. i found some parts very nauseating but ofhers very worthwhile. as always its always a mixture. and sticking to my true nature of being fickleminded, i am yet to decide what path am i passionate to pursue..and a long sigh comes...

well, sorry can't stay long, need to get ready. am currently at Bunbury western australia, planning to go to Treetop Walks today.. huhu may Allah make ease... i'll tell u more about our trip later.. till i see u again.. toodalooo~ 

😁 yours truly, 

Dr Nahdiya Md Jan