so here i am in kepong. as u know, ive started my MO job. and although it is in KL it still feels foreign.
this year, Ramadhan is different. different, in a sense of both good and bad..
good, because i'm able to have iftar with my family and help prepare food for buka. and also be able to have a proper iftar, instead of a 10 minutes stuff your face iftar and 5 minutes maghrib prayer then straight to start night shift.-yes, it was just a year ago.
another thing i've learned is to value time.
when i was working my shifts as a HO in melaka, every nite i would dream of performing tarawih at the next door masjid AlAzim. i remember thinking if only my shift finishes an hour early i would have ample time to iftar and join the congregation for isya' and tarawih. so now, because i know how bad it feels like, i would cherish the time I have and join abah to the masjid/surau for tarawih. that is, the times when i am able to pray - hint, if u get what i mean hihihu
so the bad, is because i feel less independent and as a result, I didn't come up with my Ramadhan goals. haih, very bad Nad. so I haven't been able to give sedeqah rm1 perday as i would last year.
anyway, there's still time so i think i should try and do it before its too late.
i just read something and i think is very point on for me, "The best of you is the one who is best to his family. And I am the best of you to my family." sabda Rasulullah. riwayat at-tirmidhi and Ibn Majah. Long way to go Nad! but keep trying okay!
oh Allah pls bring peace into my heart and give what's best for me dunya and akhirat Ameen.
yours.
Nahdiya
19th Ramadhan 2016
