of racing thoughts

once in a while.. when things become quiet.. my thoughts suddenly race back.. to the time when i thought i was happy.. but i wasn't.. when i thought i had met the one who cared enough about and was thoughtful enough to make me laugh.. but he wasn't.. how could i not see it coming? 

sometimes i wonder.. am i too quick this time.. but being a mere mortal.. it was never under my power.. so i return it back to Allah.. with hopes He will give me what is best dunia and akhirat.. inshAllah Ameen.. 

Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal..