of a public holiday

so today is a public holiday for nuzul quran.. which means a day to celebrate the 1st day the quran was being taught to us humans i.e: prophet Muhammad saw..it was on the 17th ramadhan and the first ayat was iqra' bismirabbikallazi khalaq.. which meant read.. in the name of Allah the creator.. 

my mom says it should be a day we learn more about the quran.. but instead i'm reading a book.. one of my faaaaaavourite bimbo-ish book that speaks to me really well..my faaavourite author sophie kinsella's 'my not so perfect life'.. although i'm barely half way through it.. i cn feel the subject is so much like me.. i think a lot to myself.. but keeps quite.. disagrees with most of the things and then at the end, i explode when things go way outta hand.. okay its not really a good trait.. but that's life.. and there are other people like that too.. just so u dont look at me like an alien.. 👽 

nerd alert 🚨 

anyway, i love it because it makes me take my mind off other displeasing, stressful and sad things.. and allows me a few giggles here and there 😊🤓 

okay.. probably need to catch up on my tadarus in a bit.. myb listen to a ceramah on utube.. and go find some stuff later.. 

toodles

yours 

nahdiya

of music to my ears

 

i saw the video of chris martin singing this song on stage this morning with his german fan playing the piano.. i'm a huuuuge fan of chris martin.. he seems like a very genuine kind hearted good humoured british lad.. 😍😍😍 on top of having such a mellow dreamy distinct voice.. so many adjectives 😂 really love this song.. 

the romantic in me has spoken 😂 

maybe it has to do with all the wrong things happening in this world now.. the bully case in upnm, terror attack in london, the boycott on qatar.. makes me feel death is near.. life is short.. 

do things that make u happy.. even if others may not like u for who u are.. have a good niat.. life is short.. 

need to gear up on my tadarus lepas ni since skrg hv to take a break..

u kenduit! jom cube khatam

yours 

nahdiya 

of a nightmare

assalamualaikum.. hi.. 

its me.. 

i woke up this morning with a nightmare.. the dream was about a certain someone.. 

i woke up and it made me cry.. i went to take a hot shower.. cried while in the shower.. and performed my prayers.. 

i thought i was already okay.. i suppose i'm heading there.. in the medical field, when u've lost someone to a disease or passed away.. they say its normal to hv 6 weeks of bereavement.. i'll try to aim for less.. since that someone is still alive.. just that probably gone from my life.. 

i kept thinking why was i so easily cheated.. blinded.. i thought it was real.. but it wasnt.. 

i'm never one that shows my vulnerability unless u r someone i trust.. there's a handful of people i would trust my life with.. u were going to be one.. i was going to tell u that .. but u crushed my heart.. and so easily u did it.. giving me an answer.. which my only option was to walk away.. 

they say once u've experienced a heartbreak or heartache.. u would try to prevent others from having to experience the same hurt and pain.. at least that's what i try to practice.. i couldn't understand why u din't do the same.. 

i suppose my previous entry for the grammar thing was actually a low blow to that someone.. probably i was still bitter and still hurt.. i apologise

anyway, Alhamdulillah.. i feel a lot better now.. tq dear blog for being there since 2008.. we've aged well together 😂 and tq for being loyal.. traits that r honestly so hard to find now 😏

just as Allah brought Nabi Musa and his followers out of their dead end.. i pray Allah will help me the same way.. inshaAllah

please pray for me whoever u are

yours 

nahdiya

p/s waiting for subuh

sometimes i do still miss u.. myb the thought of u.. but not the u that played me like a fiddle