orang kata la kan, 'gajah kat bawah mata tak nampak, semut nuuun jauh kat ujung sana boleh pula nampak'. huhu

begitula saya baru-baru ni. kasih sayang orang-orang kat Malaysia punya la rasa xde tandingan. huhuh. sebenarnya kasih sayang orang-orang kat sini pun sama hebatnya. Alhamdulillah. :D semuanya kurniaan Allah jugak. nikmat sementara Allah bagi rasa. Alhamdulillah.

kalau dah rasa kasih sayang dengan manusia pun boleh meleleh air mata. kasih sayang Allah betapalah hebatnya lagi tak terhingga kan? patutnya lebih-lebihla air mata kita mengalir kan?

Allah jaga segala-galanya tentang kita, daripada dunia kandungan ibu lagi, Allah jaga kesihatan ibu yang sedang mengandung, sehingga kita dah besar dan mampu merasa hidup sementara di dunia ini, yang penuh dengan suka dukanya. nikmat Allah beri. MashaAllah.

sampaikan kita juga mampu untuk mencurahkan kasih sayang kepada orang lain keranaNya insyaAllah sebagaimana Allah membenarkan kita merasai kasih sayang daripada ibu bapa dan orang sekeliling kita dari kecik lagi.

daripada Hadith 13,

On the authority of Anas bin Malik, the servant of the messenger of Allah, that the prophet said :"None of you [truely] believes until he wishes for his brother what he wishes for himself."

Related by Bukhari and Muslim

p/s: Dr G. kata kita evolve from 4 legged animal, Dr R. kata kita evolve daripada fish. hehe. kesian kat fishes and 4 legged animals yang belum evolve jadi manusia lagi. mungkin lambat sikit growth mereka?

i miss them. i miss hanging out with them. while they are still misses.

fenin fenin lalat..

salam.

Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah.

can i tell you a bit about my day? no..maybe..probably? nevermind..hehe i'm still gonna tell..:)
this morning i had a 9 to 1 lecture. played some squash. showered. had some lunch. went to library. picked up my reserved book from the issue desk. found a comfortable and secluded cubicle. checked my exam results. flipped through the book a bit. checked up on some stuff. and now, i'm typing this blog entry. yes. definately a distraction from doing my work.

do you want to know something else? no..maybe..probably? nevermind, i'm still gonna tell. i just noticed somehow lately i seem to be stripped off from my feelings. yes. i am still human. yes. i can still do my work, i can read, write and type. but the feelings of sad, annoyed, angry etc etc doesn't seem to be occurring as often anymore. i work, work, work and fall asleep. eat. drink. hang out with friends. seeking Islamic knowledge, doing my SSC. and so the days go by with almost the same routine. well, come to think of it I might be a bit more busier than usual. hence, no time for me to be thinking about my own flood of feelings which I am not really sure whether it's good or bad. what do you think?

anyway, because of the lack of attention i've been giving myself, this entry is meant to be my therapeutic time. (which honestly sounds a bit pathetic..huahua) oh well. as long as I'm happy. haha not to sound too vain but then our body is also our amanah to take care of because it is not ours pun in the first place. hehe. thus we shouldn't also neglect our emotional health (as well as the spiritual health lg la). the point of this entry being that I need to swim in my own emotions to be able to understand myself better and insyaAllah help others in this path too. i don't want to feel forced but i want to also enjoy myself in enduring all the aches and pains life or this path has to offer. which in another context means what Allah is teaching me to become. just makes me appreciate Allah more seeing that our feelings is also nikmat from Allah be it best or not.

this entry has no conclusion. and no ayat Quran to relate to since I am no hafizah and my Quran is not currently with me at the moment. what a shame.....(for both parts).



p/s: last week called and told mama. mama ok je. mama kata, "selalunya Allah akan permudahkan" lega. Alhamdulillah. :D

bismillah.

i just remembered. a few years back mama said she likes seeing ladies wearing long jubahs, long clothes and all the other Busana Muslimah shall we say. so she asked me, "Angah, don't you want to try wearing clothes like them..you will look very sweet in them." haha. yes, this my crude translation from Malay.

anyway, i was in form 3 or 4. and it is told that the teenage years are the period of exploration, self discovery, rebels and hardheadedness. though the level of each encounters may vary from one individual to another, it is still apparent in everyone. so i said, (not realizing at that time that I was being a 'typical' teenager) "mama, maybe i don't think so..they're already 20 plus now, so it suits them wearing clothes like that because it's appropriate for their age. i'm only in form 3..maybe later..when i'm in uni i'll wear clothes like that." shrugging off the idea.

mama just smiled, maybe a bit amused of my answer.

that was that. so now, i'm 22 years worth of age. aaaa! and yes I am also in uni. and guess what?
i'm starting to wear these long2 clothes and jubahs..

and surprisingly enough, it isn't because of the promise i had told mama a long time ago. and i'm not even sure if mama still remembers but it's insyaAllah due to my own desire to dress according to the Islamic dress code and for His pleasure.

Although my reply to mama has never since occurred in my mind. i think that in some way, Allah has greatly helped me to keep my promise. and it only shows, if we take care of our relationship with Allah. Allah will take care of the rest, insyAllah. hehe :D and now it's amusing to both of us.



p/s: insignificant things that cross my mind tatkala hujan sedang turun di luar library. menunggu hujan reda supaya boleh cari lunch. perut sudah berkeroncong dan otak sudah pening memikirkan tentang otak. heheh. serves me right for choosing SSC topic psl otak?