Flotilla

ah. sakit. sakitnya hati yang x terhingga. more than that, i'm furious!!! please click on the following link. (the latest is 20 people killed)

http://www.youtube.com/user/AlJazeeraEnglish#p/u/1/xFEBbDkyrqQ

although i've been massively side tracked from my studying to the feeling of wanting to stay in front of my laptop searching for the latest updates, we too, have our own duties to fulfill.
They are carrying out their's as best as possible. with Allah's blessing, the one's that people may think are unlucky (to die) are actually living the best lives possible in Akhirah insyaAllah.
so please my dear, do yours as well.
what's done is done. and what will be is still partly in our hands, the rest is up to Him. i'm talking in codes here. primarily referring to my exam this Friday but not to forget about the bigger picture of our ummah! this is just the beginning. so, berusaha please, Lillahita'ala.
may Allah be pleased with us, insyaAllah.
Allah, please guide the flotilla through or help them with what ever way You may, please give them the best possible outcome insyaAllah. Amin.

*may 'the murderers' burn in hell! <- okay, please pardon the vulgarity.

what would be more constructive instead is to make dua for the safety of the flotilla members and everyone involved in this campaign. and ummat Islam in general. Jom Doa! Amin!! wslm.

bismillahirrahim

hihi. looks like a catterpillar..so small~

After 8 months and 2 weeks in als' womb, Peanuts has finally made it through. Alhamdulillah, praise to Allah for this bundle of joy.

"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Peliharalah dirimu dan keluargamu dari api neraka yang bahan bakarnya adalah manusia dan batu; penjaganya malaikat2 yang kasar, dan keras, yang tidak durhaka kpd Allah terhadap apa yang dia perintahkan kpd mereka & selalu mengerjakan apa yang diperintahkan" (at-Tahrim: 6)

insyaAllah, let's remind each other, that in bringing ourselves and our loved ones closer to Allah, we should always treat them dearly, with care and good manners and also with hikmah. fulfilling their haq as just as possible insyaAllah.

"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Sesungguhnya di antara istri-istrimu dan anak-anakmu ada yg menjadi musuh (menjerumuskan utk melakukan perbuatan2 yg tidak dibenarkan oleh agama), maka berhati-hatilah kamu terhadap mereka; dan jika kamu maafkan dan kamu santuni serta ampuni (mereka), maka sungguh, Allah Maha Pengampun, Maha Penyayang." (at-Taghabun: 14)

can't wait to go back for Summer break to see peanuts, insyaAllah. (aaaa~ my silent scream inside) ^_^

p/s: yaAllah, please help my mak usrah (as old as the term may sound, age wise, she's not that old). i hope she's coping well. berkatilah masanya dan amalnya, permudahkanlah examnya, panjangkanlah attention span utknya and kuatkanlah tubuh badannya so she can work out her plans. Amin...

bismillah.

just a short one before i'm off to class.
there are 3 things that I feel is a very worthy investment ever since i came to Bristol.

1. my sleeping bag (GBP 9)
2. my squash racket (GBP 10)
3. time that's filled with remembering Allah. (priceless)

let's get our momentum going and not waste our time today. insyaAllah.

bismillah.

i have issues. if only that could be my escape line for situations when i feel down and depressed. so when other people hear how complex-minded this certain biological life form is, they will leave me alone and not ask questions. if only...

but Allah equipped us with the physical, spiritual and mental capacities for us to change the situation into a better one, to think of ways to overcome the problems and to fight against the forces of evil. (hehe mcm star wars je, dramaticnye?) but truly, when our emotions are swayed towards the side of us that is totally unbearable, that is pessimistic and overtly intolerable (either by our own self or others), aren't those just signs of shaiton working their 'magic' on you?

while there might not be an obvious reason why we sometimes do get depressed, especially when we were in a perfectly stable condition before (in terms of imaan or ibadah or emotional state), it is actually Allah's way of reminding us of his powers. He, the Exhalted, the Most Powerful of all, can do whatever He wants whenever He wants to us, wherever we are. Making us experience, from the highest of the highs to the lowest of the lows.

Setting a reminder for us that if we become better people, if we succeed in life, if we are happy and manage to attain whatever we desire in life, it isn't because of our effort alone. and i repeat, it isn't because of us alone. there is indeed a greater power that determines our outcome. (paranoid? hehe.) yes, and that greater power that allows all things to happen is Allah's will.

so actually feeling low and depressed (though is not recommended), does help to keep our niat and iman in check. so hopefully we wouldn't become egocentric people that thinks the vast spherical far and wide world that we live in revolves around us alone. hihi

just to share an Ayat,
"Jika Allah menolong kamu mencapai kemenangan, maka tidak ada sesiapa pun yang akan dapat mengalahkan kamu. (Ali-Imran:160)

maka sayang-sayang sekalian, translated to, well my dears, the way out of this misery is indeed to correct our relationship with the King of Hearts. haha. of course Allah.

insyaAllah. mari beramal. dan tidak depressed. certainly a reminder for me. ^.^