of pet peeves

hi its the ramadhan month Alhamdulillah😊 

i'm really happy cuz it means i can put my focus somewhere else.. 

today i had to take mc..so unlike me.. well i have gastroenteritis.. yesterday i did work late and asked someone to buy me food for iftar.. i think somehow the food wasn't going great with my tummy.. had some vomiting and diarhoea.. and a bit of fever when i checked at the clinic.. am really glad i got to rest.. 

so i saw some things today that i wasn't supposed to see.. or purposely told myself not to see.. u know how everyone has their pet peeves? someone might not take it if the other person is late (flips hair).. and well, i think mine might be grammar.. kay, hate to admit it bt i might hv just a tiny bit of a grammar nazi in me.. i don't really mind if its verbal.. but if its written it kinda makes me cringe a little when reading it..not to say that i'm sooo good in english.. far from that, the ones that make me cringe is if its like really basic grammar.. i don't really mind about spelling.. 

so i accidentally saw it today and i cringed.. and thought "right.. its definitely over..  " 

herher.. no more IGs please

nahdiya 

of ups and downs

i thought it would end already.. bt the thoughts still randomly pop up.. 

its hard..

i kept thinking y dint u fight for me? myb u thought there ws nothing to fight for in the first place.. 

i just dint see it 😔😔

urghh i hate feeling like this

xpe it will go away

praying for a better tmrw

nahdiya

of let this be the last

Alhamdulillah thumal hamdulillah thummal hamdulillah i'm in my right mind again.. huhuhihi 😊

i've done a bit of reflecting and soul defining/searching moments.. 

i think i forgive u.. not because i hv feelings for u.. or because what u did wsnt wrong.. not because i want u back.. but because u too just like me are Allah's creation.. we have flaws.. ur flaws myb in one aspect while my flaws myb in another aspect.. the fact that u din't do the appropriate thing is something that i hv to live with and accept.. as part of what was meant to be.. and i accept that myb what u said about me was rite.. but at the end of the day.. i hope we will be just fine.. u with ur choice and me with mine..

being wrong doesnt make us evil, it means we're human.. and hving courage is to admit to them and apologise.. 

so i let u go.. be free.. and find peace.. and happiness.. as i would hope for myself.. 

yours

nahdiya 

ps: okayyy i think im so jiwang.. bt i hope this is the last of it.. haha i pun da rs malas nk baca my post.. so bosan.. move on pls.. there's so much to look forward too.. bt well u know, the thoughts, they come and go.. rite.. nk settle kn my puase and gearing into ramadhan month inshaAllah.. اللهم بلغنا رمضان oh Allah please let us meet ramadhan again.. ameen and myb just myb being an FMS is not so bad 😉

of closure

if things take too much effort to work out, its probably not worth it. no one has the time to nurse an inconsiderate person with an ego. 

let bygones be bygones.

hi can i get a cab please? please bring this person out of my life. thank u. 😊

im okay

yours

nahdiya

of advice we say to our children

so this is how it feels when our trust is betrayed

or when someone doesnt have the decency to tell u what's happening until u figure out yourself.. 

it's one way or the other.. hearts will be broken.. please be the better man and be honest.. 

apologies can be given.. mistakes can be rectified.. but mistreatment will be hard to forget

they say things happen for a reason.. 

maybe it ws my mistake all along? something that i needed reminding? 

perhaps a reminder that i should be closer to You? that i have long strayed from my mutabaah amal? from reading mathurat in the car? from hafal quran? from reading the meanings? or from putting my tawakul and trust in You?

perhaps what we wanted were on parallel lines, never meant to meet  up anywhere?

perhaps Allah has a better plan?
perhaps its a lesson utk bersangka baik dgn Allah? 

this too shall pass inshAllah

so what if im emotional?
because what u did ws still unacceptable

nahdiya 

of taken from the web

"there's too much on my mind that i want to write but nothing comes out..

that's how i feel when i'm with u 

too much to say but nothing comes out.. just huhus and hahas

but never the essence 

i was never me

and u were never u

unlike the song by james bay that we listened to 

i'm sorry if it was my mistake 

for being so stoical so unemotional
but your late replies were so torturing
wondering why, wondering what if, wondering where's
the apology

i kept every feeling of fondness, endearment inside until we were together

but that was never an excuse for you

not to fight for me,
until i got the answer

and now comes the heartache

but the heartbreak is unbearable.. 

or was unbearable.. 

in a few days time

inshaAllah"

-anonymous-

of weirdness

am i weird? 

of hormones talking

i think i'm falling...

...

...

...

falling in love with you 

urgh.. this is the hormones talking..

come on nausea and bloating and abdominal cramps.. cepatla go away so i can work like normal and not become hormonal..and give MC to anyone yg minta just because i terlebih empathy today.. 

yours, 

nahdiya