c-t-w-b syndrome

i'm having this can't-wait-to-balik syndrome. so lately i've been thinking a lot about people back home. and i mean a LOT. hehe.

anyway, i'm really starting to miss that little brat. she's in darjah 2 now. i'm wondering how she's doing.

the other day i was calling home. talking to along. and i was asking along what was adah doing. she said adah was in front of the telly. so i asked her, die tengah tengok tv ke? along said, xla, dia tgh buat buku latihan darjah 1. hmm, bukan dia darjah 2 ke. so i asked along again, nape die wat latihan darjah 1? dia ade exam untuk darjah satu balik ke? along jawab, xla. dia baru terjumpe buku tu. *hahaha*

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i used to bathe adah since small. when she was only a few days old, when her eyes were still closed. so pure. so tiny. sometimes i would bathe her even when she's asleep. i'd hold her in one hand, and run water gently on her. haha, she was sleeping so soundly that i didn't think she knows she's given a bath. but now she's like so big. i'd get back pain if i try to give her a piggy back. yet, her habit of having people bathing her remains. so the other day, i told her to take a shower. then she said, she'd only shower if i wait for her and dry her off. so i said okay, fine. as long as she takes a shower, or else mama will be mad at me if she doesn't shower. so i waited outside the toilet for her to finish.

she opened the door and said okay, da siap. all shivery. haha.
i took a towel and dried her off. i could smell the sense of dettol cool (which i just bought for myself to try it out). she has her own shower gel. i think it's carrie junior or something. anyway, i asked her:

me: adah, u gune my dettol eh?
adah: a'a. u boleh smell ke?
me: a'a. best tak? rase sejuk kan.
adah: best. rase cool je. macam puasa hari thursday.
me: *blur* huh?
adah: yela, kalau org yang puasa hari thursday kan nanti dalam kubur dia rase cool je.
me: *erk.

haha. seriously i was speechless. i never told her that. i think she learnt that in school.

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well, a few months before i finished my probation period for my driving license, i nearly came into an accident. which Alhamdulillah nobody got hurt and which my parents didn't know of. anyway, there was still the trauma. after that incident i avoided driving and stayed away from the steering wheel. i think my parents noticed that but i guess they thought that i was just lazy to drive. anyway, there came a day when i needed to drive. i can't remember why. it was either to pick up my sister from the train station or to satisfy my craving for nasi lemak. both of which wasn't far away from my house. adah wanted to come along, so i thought it would be safe enough for her since it's not that far. i strapped on my seat belt. adjusted the seat and mirrors. and took a deep breath. i turned to adah to make sure she's wearing her seat belt and then said to her,

me: adah, i takutla.
adah: nape?
me: (i wanted to explain about the phobia, but i don't think she'd understand)
entahla, sebab i da lame tak bawak kerete kot.
adah: kenapa u nak takut. bukan kite kan kene takut dengan Allah ke?
me: *erk.


didn't see that one coming.

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hope to see u soon adah.